What would you say to people newly diagnosed with this illness?
I would say to them all what I would’ve said to myself when I was first diagnosed; be brave. Those two words carry your world, because what it all comes down to, is that it is going to hurt and you’re going to feel helpless and in incredible pain despite doing everything you can and you’re supposed to do in order to help yourself and all you can do in those times, is be brave. You have to develop some serious endurance with a mental illness because it might not just be a once off event for you. No one should ever wish for death as much as we do. No one. Know you are not alone in the struggle towards health and know that many have recovered and you can too, but it requires you to be committed to your recovery and to never stop trying. Also, as I’ve said before, a mental illness isn’t all your life will be. You will still have such great moments in between if you try to find them. Remember, pain is everywhere. Unfortunately, life grants no one full freedom from that and all we can and must do is grind through it and wait for each sunrise. Just be brave. I promise you, it will be worth it. Don’t give up on yourself or your life, ever. The times I lost my mind in total irrationality and tried to, I am so glad I didn’t because I see it now for what it is and it’s not the truth that you’re better off dead. You were lost in a moment. Just one moment that overwhelmed you so much that could’ve ended in an unnecessary catastrophy. You will probably get caught up in those thoughts too much to believe any of what I’ve just said right now, so if you can’t hold onto anything else, just hold onto this; be brave! And also, a part of you might always feel damaged and maybe a part of you really will always be damaged but it’s okay! We are all a little damaged in some way. Just don’t ever let the damage consume you.
What is your favourite quote that has helped get you through?