Thank you for visiting thoughts of a sunrise!
My name is Veronike and I am a 26 year old final year medical student. I have walked a long journey through years of struggling with Major Depressive Disorder since the age of 15. Still suffering from this and having accepted its part in my life and overcoming much of it with treatment I have now learned to become stronger through the years and built my way to survival and hope. Having initially run a blog for three years on my journey through major depressive disorder I decided to finally step away from that in realising I am no longer on a journey of writing about darkness and pain purely but rather on one where I now live to grow in life and keep striving for a healthy mindset through all struggles.
Life brings us much pain and difficult challenges but our ability to overcome those challenges lies in our mental wellbeing. It is the battlefield of the mind. In this blog you will find posts of hope, motivation, inspiration, health and also raw, heartfelt honesty about pain. My thoughts and personal journey is one I share too and as I write much poetry about life experience I will be sharing all of that with any keen readers willing to view them.
I am not one for sugarcoating the truth and invalidating our struggles by bombarding you with “just think positive” approaches. Often our greatest healing comes from staring at the face of- and sitting with the ugly hurts and truths of our struggles. Acknowledging concepts of pain, thoughts and feelings many of us often have and dissecting the difficulties through these posts it will also allow for clarity and encourage our independent and more realistic thinking towards how we can each individually get to where we want to be and grow towards becoming the people we really are.
Life is a journey we all know we must walk but walk it with a purpose. We find our purpose in the things we love and are drawn too and those things which make us smile. Many of us bury ourselves and forget those things or deem them unworthy. It takes courage to become who you really are and bravery to speak the matters of your mind which so very much do matter! Stitch by stitch and step by step we form ourselves on this road we walk and we must learn to love the sound of our steps on it.
You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. Allow beauty to shatter you regularly. The loveliest people are the ones who have been burnt and broken and torn at the seams yet still send their open hearts into the world to mend with love again and again and again. You must allow yourself to feel your life while you’re in it.
You deserve it all. You deserve love and peace and magic and joy dancing in your eyes. You deserve hearty, deep-belly laughter and the right to let those tears fall and water the soil. You deserve freedom and goodness and company and days of bliss and quiet too. You deserve YOU happy and healed and content and open. So keep going. Go realise into the life you deserve. You owe it to yourself and in the end it’s all up to you to do it.
With each new day comes new thoughts and a new sunrise and a new reminder that you have another chance.
I hope you find a sense of hope and renewal through posts of this blog.